When do you say “I am enough”?

My 2019 has started off with some awesome days. As I type this I came to realization that I am enough. No one can tell me how to live my life, what to expect from my life, what I should focus on in my life. I am living my life for me. In 2019, I will not be afraid to take a risk.


When I came to this Epiphany, I was telling this guy, I liked him. I did say in 2019 I was going to go after everything I wanted no matter how scary it may be, I was going after it. So being the Scorpio ♏️ I am. I was like why not let him know you like him. So I did.


Well let just say after I did , the nerves set in and now my head/heart won’t (I did say I wasn’t going to use this word either.)stop thinking what have you done🤦🏾‍♀️. I remember I said I was not going to allow me to stand in my way. I meant what I said. This is when the words “I am enough” set in. I was getting ready to text him to forget it but then I was like girl get over yourself. You said your peace, let it go and move on.


So that’s what I did. We had a conversation and he expressed a different feeling because let’s just face it, I’m a lot to handle. Being a strong willed woman and a focus one at that can be a lot for one man to handle. Let me clarify, a lot for the wrong man to handle. One thing I do know, is how to be a woman who is supportive of a man she seeks and show him the affection he needs. Especially when it’s needed. So when he said he didn’t feel the same, I was disappointed at first but I quickly understood.


So when he ask to be friends, I was like cool. As I type this I’m moving past my feelings for him because he said he wanted to be friends but I’m seeing things differently. No, he doesn’t want a relationship but does he really want a friendship? Here’s where I learn to read the signs of what happening inside my circle that is ever so small. With my friends I communicate with them mostly every now and again. I check on them, I ask them what’s happening in their lives. You know the usual. I’m checking but he’s not. 🤷🏾‍♀️


Also, I remember I said if it doesn’t serve a purpose, I’m letting it go. It will be removed from my life. I meant that as well. What I don’t want to do is not be a supportive friend but I also like to be supported. I’ve dealt with the friends where the relationship was one-sided and I vowed to eliminate those kinds of relationships. I plan to keep that tradition in 2019. Right now I’m not seeing the purpose this person serves in my life. He’s just holding up space that could be use for someone who may need me to be a ear, shoulder or place to be true friend. I can’t be a true friend if this person won’t allow me in.


Though I know this may be hard for this person because My intuition says that he’s trying to figure me out as much as I’m trying figure him out. We may need to just part ways. If it’s meant to be we may meet again in the future. Then, just maybe we both will have some clarity on what we both want or he may meet his forever or I will meet mine. Either way we just can’t keeping going down a road that is not clear. It’s not a positive thing. It’s a hindering thing. What I will not allow is for something to hinder me in place that’s I can’t see the potential in its future. So today, I will be having a conversation with this person. If we can’t come to some sort of understanding/clarity then it time to remove it from my life.


When you feel like you are not enough. I want you to say to yourself, “I am enough.” Cancel those negative thoughts and focus on what you know and what you can do. Don’t focus on the what will happen if I say this or do this. Focus on the what will happen, if I spoke it into existence or what will happen if I took that step and followed through. Nine times out ten you will feel relieved and at peace. Take that step, it ok to be anxious but don’t block yourself from freedom.

Until next time,

Cynethia🙂

Welcome, 2019!

Happy New Year, I would like to do some reflecting on the past year.

From starting a new job, planning for my future, to setting plans and procedures to help make it thru the upcoming year(2019).

We are now, 6 days in, I can say honestly that I never felt so good about a year, even though it just started.

My plan is to make this year my best from working hard at a job I love, to focusing on being a woman of growth and strength. As well as taking the good and the bad with the outlook of a positive outcome. Whether it is the outcome I wanted or the outcome that was needed. I plan to make the best of it no matter what.

This year I will only focus on the positive. My mindset is that I will no longer allow the negative to impact my mind, my soul, my performance, my ethics, nothing that I know that as a strong-willed woman that I can control. I will no longer allow it to have a hold on me, it will be ignored and pushed out of my thought process.

I’m no longer using words such as can’t and won’t. These are words that hold negative endings. Well to me it does. I will not be limiting myself from trying to conquer every challenge that is placed in front of me.

So here is to the New Year. Let’s fight for what we want and taking every step, not just the first few.

Happy Weekend!!!!

September is just flying by.

As another week comes to a close. I want to do some reflecting.


Can you say that you are the same person you were a year ago?

I can’t.

I can say I have grown into something so different, so much so it surprises me sometimes.😊

From the ever-changing days to ever-changing nights. 

When we sleep we dream of the impossible but when we wake up we see the impossible. 

There is no feeling greater than impossible.  


 As individuals, we see that those impossibles become possibilities.

When they become possibilities they become a legacy. 

I bet you didn’t think about that.🤔

You don’t have to be famous to leave a legacy.😉


Legacy: What does a legacy mean to you?

My hope for my legacy is: 

When people think of me, I hope they say she was kind-hearted, determined, and focused to be the best woman/person she could be.

I hope they say when she started something she never looked back until that task was completed.

She moved on knowing she did everything possible to show her tenacity. 

Her words were to be spoken with purpose and spoken with no fear but faith in the task at hand.

This is what I hope my legacy leads to.

What do you hope for your legacy?


As I reflect on my growth and my upcoming impossibles.

All I ask is that you keep building a legacy that will show and leave a lasting impression on the world. Better yet the people you touch. 

I’ll end it here by saying you touch everyone you come in contact with.

Even when you think you don’t, know that you do and they feel the power of you

Keep flying friends,

Cynethia!

First Week Back to Work!!!!

My first week back to work:

As I was a little nervous getting ready to enter back into my routine, after being off for

the summer. 

With a feeling and a little voice inside my head telling me that I would be ok.

I still felt butterflies in my stomach like it was my first day. 

I remember entering into the same building for nine months only missing two but parts of me were still unsure.

I did my regular stuff, saw some of my co-workers and went into my orientation like any other day.

Little did I know, my gut was telling me that changes were happening.

After all the meetings and getting through the first half of the morning. 

I found out I would be moving from the very first place I ever worked for ☹.

Are you ready for the happy part:

Still a little scared but found out this place was super close to my home and had some of

my co-workers moving as well.  I was getting home before rush hour (💃). 

Plus, after the first few days, I felt a little better about this new change.

Changes you say:

One great part is it was within walking distances of my home. 

Some of my co-workers were joining me.

less traffic in the morning/ less hassle of having to plan my route to leave before the sun comes up.

peace of mind.

These are great changes and I look forward to achieving so many things with this new change.

PS, Change is better when you’re able to share it.

Share your change and I bet you will feel amazing about it.

Speak to you all soon,

Cynethia!

 

Happy Monday/Labor Day

Hello Everyone,

As we welcome the unofficial end to summer.☹

Yes, it is time to say Goodbye to our summer holidays and hello to our beautiful work

environment. (😊see what I did there.)

I don’t want you to feel like its a burden. I want you to feel like you’re going to rock

whatever comes your way.💃🕺

There is going to be some challenges, I know for a fact you will make it through every last one.

Plus, you will say to yourself, “WOW!!!! that wasn’t so bad.”

Allow yourself the chance to be you. Do things your way and follow what your gut and

mind tell you.

Never overshadow your potential and never forget what you are capable of. 🎉🎊

Wake up every day and feel like there is nothing standing in your way and continue to push through.

So I wish you nothing but happiness and success as we push through together.

until next time friend,

Cynethia🙌🙌🙌

 

 

 

Back to Work/School

Hello All,

As summer comes to a close, I want to wish those of you going back to school or work a

successful and amazing school/work year.

I will be going to back to work in September with new hope and new guidance.

I can’t wait to see what this new school year has to offer

and what’s in the works for my future.

I will be working on the site and working a full-time job but I will give both

my all when it comes time to put in the work.

Thank you for sticking it out with me and helping build something that is so dear to my

heart.

In beginning,I wanted Redefined Love to be a site that allowed others to read and feel at

peace knowing that you are not alone in whatever you went through or whatever you

maybe going through.

I still feel that but I would like to make it feel like we are also growing and making

changes happen in life.

For so long my life has been at a stand still and it’s picking up now. As it picks up and

move forward I will be showing some of my life because I can’t really show it all.

Come along with me on my new Journey 🙂